It's weird, usually when people ask me what my biggest fear is I automatically respond with something totally cleche like Clowns or Spiders, because no lie if I see a clown I break down, freak out and sob. Spiders terrify me to no end.
But today I realized something, actually I realized a lot of 'somethings'; those are just what I'm scared of.
My true fear, is loss. I'm so afriad of loosing people I know and love, that even when I'm lied and deceved by the person I'll still cry.
Most of all I'm afraid of living without my dad. Somehow he knows just what to say to make me feel like I'm worth something. Sometimes, like now, I wonder how I'm ever going to survive without him there. Because I know deep down that there is no one in the world that could ever do what he does. He'll take me from a crying mass of tears and flesh and make me feel like a Spartan ready to battle the Persians.
I'd like to think that's what I am anyway. Someone strong trying to fight a loosing battle. I know I'm going to loose, but I keep trying because there is still some hope of winning.
But because I hate being the horribly depressive person that I am now, I will end on a lighter foot.
This Is Sparta !











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8U SMELLS LIKE MADNESS.
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Us: Patrick where do you live? *evil grin*
Patrick: I live in a cave... in a van down by the river.
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*kidnap Patrick and Andy*
Patrick:We're 5 minutes into our five-hour drive, and we're already stuck.
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I HAVE MOVED
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Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune-without the words
And never stops at all.
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